Saturday Morning Update December 13th

“Loving is a feeling that brings both joy and pain to my heart. Joy from being with you, being filled with an emotion so deep and tender that no other feeling can compare. Pain from knowing that I'm so in love, that I'm more vulnerable than I've ever”

Cutie Cupcake
Aslynn and Mommy

She loves being upside down, she laughs so hard its so funny~

I love feet, and this was Aslynn's first time in jeans!

sister love

Bonded for life

I am finally getting use to the time zone change, I think it did not help that Aslynn was still in Addis time, so while I was wanting to get rest to catch up, she was like HEY MOM.... I am awake! She is a doll, everyday I learn something new about her.

Her pox have stopped. The meds the doctor gave only allowed about 5 pox to come and then it stopped, did not spread or anything, I am going to take her Monday to see if its still contagious as my family has not even seen her yet. Nobody in the house has caught it yet, so that is a good thing. The bad thing is that I have cabin fever like there is no tomorrow with being in the house and not being able to take her out and about me with except in the car here or there, but not in public. I am NOT a house person, I am a GET OUT THERE, and DO SOMETHING person.

Aslynn still sucks her wrist when anxious or when she falls asleep, I have tried every type of pacifier, this will be something slowly that she will have to know to break away from.

I find her knowing that she is safe, in a home where she is loved and she is not afraid at all. At first the kids I think made her jumpy, they talk baby talk to her, which is sweet, but she looks at them like OK first I don't know English, Second, why are these little white kids all up in my FACE. ha ha they get right in her face, I have to tell them to "back it up" and they do. They just want to LOVE all over her all the time, which is so positive, but she needs to get use to it. NOW that its been over a week, she looks for them, she rolls from front to back and back to front and when she hears the kids she puts her head up and starts making these giggle noises. She is extremely in love with Makenzie. Aslynn kicks her feet and gets so excited to see her, to get her attention. its too funny, Makenzie is a little mommy, its cute.

Logan has taken the baby on so well, he keeps asking me when he is getting a brother, I said soon I hope. I could adopt a house full if God would allow me to. I just live for the kids, doing the mommy thing, and just being me. The time this past week has been priceless, the moments of quiet, outside in the nice weather where Aslynn just loves looking at the colors and green grass. We spent the day playing outside and taking some pictures. She is so full of laughter and just fits with us so well. I hope a 2nd one would do the same, I don't want to rock the boat, but Aslynn is such a good baby. I think she has her moments of now knowing how to "play" me with being spoiled, and YES the mommy I am will give in. I have no issues holding her 24 7. HA HA she loves the attention and she will whine to get a bottle and then not even want it, just smile to make the point that she got it. I laugh at her and tell her she is a stinker! but then give her the kisses all over her head, she loves it. The reaction when I walk in her room and up to the crib is one of joy and excitement, maybe she thinks I wont come back? maybe she thinks she wont see me again or has to go back there? we could only guess what goes through these babies minds going from 1 world to another. BUT I am here everyday, I reassure her that, as I do my other children. I love them all, all 3 of them and Jon. I am so blessed and at the happiest moment in my life. I feel so good about my decision, and going there and getting her. All the hard work, the papers, the interviews, fingerprints, the doubts, the conflicting emotions, lead me to Aslynn and now I have her in my arms forever. Its a wonderful feeling one that cant be expressed into words. A long time goal, but in a short time, wrapped up to a happy ending of a LIFE that I get to raise and see grow as a young woman and into the future equal to the others.

Jon and I look at the 3 of them together and just smile, because we know in our hearts we did the right thing, and through all the back and forth doubt or questioning, I am so glad that we did it, and I look forward to see if more babies are in our future. God will lead us down the road he wants us to end up at, I hope its a bigger family, I hope its the dreams and wishes that we pray for. We are truly blessed and luck in today's world and economy, I try my hardest to help as many people and others as I can knowing the blessings that I have received.

I need to now get more into the Christmas mood. I have been so busy with the adoption, travel, and getting use to the new settings that I have not even shopped yet. We finally got our tree up, but it does not feel the same this year. We didn't have time for lights, and to do now, would be pointless. Next year will be different, this year will be all about the wonderful gift God gave us Aslynn, and family. I need to get out this weekend, knock out xmas shopping and be done with it once and for all. I still have not gotten Aslynn a stroller, I need to do that as well. I have one in mind the Phil and Ted Vibe with the seat in the back for a 2nd rider. I found them online, but want to go to a store and see it in person again and see how functional it is now that I have aslynn. Maybe that will be my Saturday drive? :) At least Jon is home today, he enjoys being able to get time with all the kids, and then I can get out and get some shopping done. NINA where are you this weekend girl!

And YES I will take pictures of the baby room and the kids rooms, I know a few have asked me in email, and I will do that this weekend :)