My Blog..WOW how behind am I?

"Other Things May Change Us,But We Start And End With Family"

~Anthony Brandt

Wow,I have not been online in a long time,and today had a moment to sit down, and actually log in and sadly enough saw the date of my last post and than saw that was behind already and had to close my eye and say a prayer that I may have time to catch up on life,on me,on the world and environment around me. Life threw us a curve ball with Bryce last year,we are still battling so many issues that I will have to slowly peel his "onion" apart as I update. But I still know deep in my heart, Bryce is in our homes because God placed him with us for a purpose. Unknown still, and yes days I want to run for the hills,and the family has been flipped,turned,taken into a rough storm and sad all because of a little child and the untold true to us last year and still things we are finding out now. All forgiven and all known in my heart that he would have died if we did not go back and get him,he would not have a home,and a family, and the opportunities of a lifetime he has with us.He now just has time to battle out,to heal his mind,heart and soul.With failure to thrive,RAD,developmental,physical,hormone problems, and my list could go on.. we love his smile,when he does decide to "turn on" the overwhelming hugs,loves,sweet voice,and the way that he can change the way your day or week has gone,just by 5 minutes of him finally giving you "Bryce". A deep breath as I slowly update my blog,as my family recovers from our tornado of a storm,and we hope that calm waters slowly come to our door and our family can FINALLY be somewhat "normal" as compared to what we have been dealing with on and off.

The love we all have shown,given,and expressed makes me proud,smile and know that m 2 bio kids YES have been through more than a child should and see and feel.. but I see what they are learning,how they are seeing the other side of the world and how lucky they are to have 2 Christian parent to be able to reach out,grab them and they may run to us at anytime. For Bryce not having anyone for so long,we all see what it does to a child,my 2 bios feel,see, and have to deal with it daily. So different than Aslynn as she was 6 months when we picked her up. Bryce just turned 2 on March 16th (we go by the birth certificate as he is still tiny, even though bone density test and dental show him at4, we will never go by that as he is smaller than Aslynn and fits in 3-6 clothes). Love,attachment,and family really does make a child grow,love,and form as a person,as a whole.. and we are experiencing it daily.We battle what Bryce we are getting today when the sun comes up in the morning,and some days its a blessing and a talkative boy that is full of life and actually will walk when he chooses to. And other days he wakes up shut off to the world,closing all doors, staring to the side,arms and fists in a ball and toes curls,and in a infant state,wont eat or drink. With therapy,love and time we know God will heal and he will show the world and people that doubted us we we were getting him, and even now that he is here for a divine reason, and he will change lives now and later and he will shock us all in the end.. I feel and know it as a mother.
May God bless you all and hope you are doing well. I hope to get on your blogs,see how you are doing,your children growing and doing amazing things. I wish the best for you all and hope to finally catch up as we are healing and now have peace in our hearts and trust in our Lord that life will actually be OK in the end. Our journey did not end when we brought our 2 loves home, and the 4 are growing together, I think that our journey is just beginning and I cant wait to see finally see LIFE and what IT has in store for us.

Emotionally and physically drained I cant wait to share our lives online and updates and hope that anyone that battles daily feelings,despair,unknown health of a adopted child,RAD,and attachment can take a moment to know there is someone else going through it also,it has helped me a lot to read emails and posts from others about their children. I am not alone,and that is good in a sense that I have a friend to listen and know what I am feeling that day.

Much love and hope posts soon..asap Leah get on the ball right? hugs hugs xoxo