A moment,a thought,no regrets,a future...

Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Aslynn's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage
Bryce's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage

This weekend and the past few days have been going really good. We are slowly healing up, sores closing and I can tell we are getting better. I feel a lot better and I am excited for tomorrow's doctors appointment for the kids to get them all checked out and the thumbs up that EVERY last bit of everything they all had is gone. I'm dying for tomorrow to come.

Bryce ate meat yesterday, I know doesn't sound too great, but its a big deal for a little man that has only gained 1 lb and is so tiny and need to put some weight on. I was so happy and proud as we have tried and tried and he just shrugs meat away. Well,yesterday my little man actually ate some, actually a lot, and smiled and enjoyed his hot dog all cut up. It was a different brand than we normally use, go figure, little picky boy. :) He doesn't like Mac and Cheese either,Ravioli's,chili,beans,the list goes on. He would be happy with milk or formula, BUT the doctor says FOOD FOOD and we do both and do exactly what the doctor says plus supplements. I think he just burns the food off so fast as he eats and walks in the walker or is crawling so fast everywhere. If he was not mobile I could see him gaining weight but he is all over the place. I hope the doctor can give me some answers or we can do a xray of his hips. When he stands he tilts and is off a bit with his hips, and how his legs go out when laying down.

I feel a lot better mentally today, I feel like I got a boost of support through friends and emails of other people that have gone through or going through a lot of what I am going through or have already. I give all these woman a round of applause, especially the woman that check that spot for special needs children, I applaud you for your actions and think only the highest for you.

I wish my story was one for the books, a happy fairytale "couture life" ending, but it will keep going on for awhile until everyone heals mentally,physically,and emotionally. I wish that our 2nd adoption went so great as the 1st. But again, maybe we were blinded by the thought of bringing her home that we did not see the bumps in the road along the way. The agency did change as we went from Aslynn to Bryce. They grew from a low number of clients to a large and when he has so many families and not the staff to support it, there are cracks along the road, and a few must fall through those cracks.

I want to be able to share my whole journey, from start to end with nothing left out. The uncensored version of "the road less traveled", and I will, I just want to phrase it right as I don't want people not to adopt or stop adopting just because of my experience, as I would do it over again in a heart beat. I DON'T regret my decision,I know God gave me my 2 blessings for a reason and I love them dearly. I see my family growing into something wonderful as time goes on. United and bonded forever, I see that when I got the calling to adopt, I know I first had to stop myself in my tracks and really pray hard about what I was going to do and wow what a big step. I followed my heart,my Lord,and my dreams and they have lead me here. It might not be the prettiest place right now, but soon this garden will bloom and the flowers will grow and when they do, we will all see the blessings that came out of Ethiopia and into our home.

8,923 miles away there are 2 cribs. One in the boys section, one in the girls section,already filled with a new baby sharing its space with another. Where my 2 lived,ate,drank and the life they knew before the day I got to hold them and bath them and love them and let them in on a whole new world. This road is just beginning for them both, let us heal,let us mend,let us love and unite forever. We are a family,strong and bonded with so much love to give to each other and to share. Thank you all for your prayers and support. I know my writing is as I am talking literally so you have to take it as I am standing with you face to face.Very blunt and chatty. :) I hope to get some time to catch up and read all of your blogs again and see where you are at in life and your adoptions, I am so behind!