Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Aslynn's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage
Bryce's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage
This weekend and the past few days have been going really good. We are slowly healing up, sores closing and I can tell we are getting better. I feel a lot better and I am excited for tomorrow's doctors appointment for the kids to get them all checked out and the thumbs up that EVERY last bit of everything they all had is gone. I'm dying for tomorrow to come.
Bryce ate meat yesterday, I know doesn't sound too great, but its a big deal for a little man that has only gained 1 lb and is so tiny and need to put some weight on. I was so happy and proud as we have tried and tried and he just shrugs meat away. Well,yesterday my little man actually ate some, actually a lot, and smiled and enjoyed his hot dog all cut up. It was a different brand than we normally use, go figure, little picky boy. :) He doesn't like Mac and Cheese either,Ravioli's,chili,beans,the list goes on. He would be happy with milk or formula, BUT the doctor says FOOD FOOD and we do both and do exactly what the doctor says plus supplements. I think he just burns the food off so fast as he eats and walks in the walker or is crawling so fast everywhere. If he was not mobile I could see him gaining weight but he is all over the place. I hope the doctor can give me some answers or we can do a xray of his hips. When he stands he tilts and is off a bit with his hips, and how his legs go out when laying down.
I feel a lot better mentally today, I feel like I got a boost of support through friends and emails of other people that have gone through or going through a lot of what I am going through or have already. I give all these woman a round of applause, especially the woman that check that spot for special needs children, I applaud you for your actions and think only the highest for you.
I wish my story was one for the books, a happy fairytale "couture life" ending, but it will keep going on for awhile until everyone heals mentally,physically,and emotionally. I wish that our 2nd adoption went so great as the 1st. But again, maybe we were blinded by the thought of bringing her home that we did not see the bumps in the road along the way. The agency did change as we went from Aslynn to Bryce. They grew from a low number of clients to a large and when he has so many families and not the staff to support it, there are cracks along the road, and a few must fall through those cracks.
I want to be able to share my whole journey, from start to end with nothing left out. The uncensored version of "the road less traveled", and I will, I just want to phrase it right as I don't want people not to adopt or stop adopting just because of my experience, as I would do it over again in a heart beat. I DON'T regret my decision,I know God gave me my 2 blessings for a reason and I love them dearly. I see my family growing into something wonderful as time goes on. United and bonded forever, I see that when I got the calling to adopt, I know I first had to stop myself in my tracks and really pray hard about what I was going to do and wow what a big step. I followed my heart,my Lord,and my dreams and they have lead me here. It might not be the prettiest place right now, but soon this garden will bloom and the flowers will grow and when they do, we will all see the blessings that came out of Ethiopia and into our home.
8,923 miles away there are 2 cribs. One in the boys section, one in the girls section,already filled with a new baby sharing its space with another. Where my 2 lived,ate,drank and the life they knew before the day I got to hold them and bath them and love them and let them in on a whole new world. This road is just beginning for them both, let us heal,let us mend,let us love and unite forever. We are a family,strong and bonded with so much love to give to each other and to share. Thank you all for your prayers and support. I know my writing is as I am talking literally so you have to take it as I am standing with you face to face.Very blunt and chatty. :) I hope to get some time to catch up and read all of your blogs again and see where you are at in life and your adoptions, I am so behind!
At Chapel last week Makenzie had the honor of saying the prayer in front of the whole school. Her class did a great job telling a story from the bible and everyone had a part they had to say out loud, it was really sweet to see her and spend the morning with her at Chapel. 
I have been out of the blog loop for a little while and thought I would start back with some misc. pictures of the 2 little ones. This month Aslynn is 16 months and Bryce is 19 months. They are both doing really great, and we are so proud of them both. Aslynn amazes us everyday with tons of new words, hugs out of nowhere, fully bonded, she is so integrated into the family,its like she was here from birth. Bryce we still are working through all our surprises we were unaware of and still attaching as he had to have been through some rough times growing up that he really blocks off people and the world. He would rather be alone and in his crib than out and bout and with others. He pushes love away, but we just keep sharing and giving, we are slowly breaking that shell,along with helping him overcome eating and gaining a little weight. I need to measure him, his legs look longer, and he has been eating hamburger and other foods that he has been holding down, he is progressing in many ways, we hope he will know we are his forever family build the trust if his mind will allow it even though he is special needs, and we can help him with the resources possible so he can grow and become the fullest God allows him to be. 
I finally have a moment to post Jon's pictures he took while picking up Bryce. Jon took TONS of pictures, so I picked a few to post, but gosh he took so many random. I thought I would put the ones with Abebe and Aster since people don't know what they look like sitting at the table and standing with Jon. I love the one with the lady walking away and her garment blowing behind her and it looks like maybe a umbrella in her hands as she exits the gates, it grabs me. It's interesting to see what pictures a guy takes with a camera compared to you when you go a few times. :) As far away as Addis is, as sick as we have all gotten, and as much as I love being in American...the country STILL calls my name! Not for adoption,but for something else..who knows what is in store for the future, we will see what projects and adventures may come across my path. 
Aslynn's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage
Bryce's Crib in Toukoul Orphanage
Paris and Shawna,Paris falls asleep at EVERY concert, its so loud, we don't know how she does it, but its too cute and she is a doll!
Dancing with the Jonas glow sticks
Jonas Brothers, My Fav is Joe..he is my crush :) HA
Jonas FAN smile
Ice Cream and a Concert!
Mom and Makenzie
My feet addiction
Finally a picture of the 4! and of course Makenzie at the park.